Monday, June 05, 2006 > Dreams

All of us have dreams. I have especially many. Examples of 3 of mine:

1. I got married to a really good-looking guy (Hopefully a reality soon? Hehe..)
2. I was buried alive by a mad old man and tried escaping by sticking my arm out of the ground,
calling for my mum. (Woke up crying.. I was 8)
3. A friend of mine died one day and I found her in my house, only to see her wink at me! In the
end, it was only a plot to catch some criminal as she was a detective.

Haha... Those are all dreams I have had during peaceful slumber.

But dreams also have come to me when I am awake and conscious. Recently, I have had to make decisions on whether I wanted to continue an additional year in Uni as my course has been extended a year. Since I heard, it has really got me thinking about what I wanted. Though an additional year of Uni may not seem that big a deal, it did affect many other issues that I would have to think about. And as many know, I am not one who jumps with excitement when i have to choose between di and da: I end up not eating when I go to a foodcourt just because I can't make up my mind! Pathetic, I know.. With this thrown at me, I have spent long and hard hours thinking about it.

As a result, there was a little something that was dropped in my heart a few days back. It was something I used to dream of when I was a young girl, but I lost it many years back. For every practical reason. I have been thinking a lot about it but I do not believe that it is feasible for nuts. My pragmatic self does not allow myself to believe it. Thus, the heavenly realm I sought.

Today at church, Pastor Ashley shared with us this story (My rendition of it. Sorry.. But I am not much of a storyteller. There may be slight errors, but the gist of it is there):

A young, low-ranking general once asked Napoleon, "I want this island. Give it to me." It was not a question or a plea. It was a command. Mind you, he asked this in a roomful of generals of much higher ranking than he was. Everyone was stunned. They started jeering and mocking him. In the midst of all that, Napoleon asked one of the generals for a piece of paper and a pen. Right there and then, he signed it, stating that the island belonged to the young general. Once again, everyone was stunned but for a completely different reason. Finally, one of the generals asked Napoleon, "What compelled you to give him the island?" Napoleon answered, "He honoured me by the magnitude of his request."

That hit me... I honour God by the magnitude of my request.

Though I am still not a hundred percent sure whether it is what God wants for me, I know once again that I can dream big. I can ask God for something even I don't believe that it is possible yet. As corny as it sounds, the bigger the better! How else would we rely on God entirely???